Natural Hair: My Internal Battle

There are two people that exist inside of me when it comes to my hair. There’s the girl who absolutely loves her relaxed hair and then, there’s the girl who admires natural hair from a distance. While, my hair is about as healthy as relaxed hair can be, there is something about natural hair that relaxed hair just lacks. Natural hair is so strong and looks like it can survive just about anything. In secret I long for that for my own hair; however, the process of going from relaxed to natural is what always seems to deter me.

I felt natural fever creeping up on me about six months ago and I made the decision to go natural but then quickly relapsed and ran to the hair salon to get a relaxer. After analyzing this relapse I realize that going natural is more of a mental thing than anything else. I don’t believe that I was deterred by the manageability of my hair because I found a transitioning style that I could do myself at home and I was pretty happy with it. What truly caused my relapse was that I began to panic. What would happen the more my hair grew out and it became obvious that I was going natural? What if something went wrong during my transitioning process and all of my hair fell out? What would my hair actually look like once I was fully transitioned? What if I don’t like it? Needless to say after mulling over those questions long enough I couldn’t get back to my beautician’s chair fast enough. The biggest hurdle of transitioning from relaxed to natural is jumping into the unknown not truly knowing what you’re going to get until you get it. I have gotten relaxers since I was about 7 years old and have absolutely no idea what my natural hair was like except that it was difficult to manage.

Once I made the decision to go back to getting relaxers I felt a little relieved. One reason was that I no longer felt the anxiety of entering into the unknown and two I was no longer straddling the fence. I had made a decision to stay relaxed. Six months later I feel the natural bug creeping up on me again. Sigh, here I am with another decision to make.

5 Responses to “Natural Hair: My Internal Battle”
  1. Eloise Green says:

    Two Words: Big Chop. OR Just get braids till your natural hair has grown long enough for you to be comfortable with. Regardless of what you do, you’re not gonna be happy till you learn to embrace your hair the way God made it. Natural hair magazine pics look great and all, but at the end of the day your gonna be left with the reality of your hair and not some photoshopped picture of a model wearing afro weave.

  2. says:

    Eloiseeeeee you’re righttttt and those natural hair magazine pics definitely set unrealistic standards

  3. says:

    It is funny. Most of the black natural hair photos are weaves or wigs. I do however have a third way to “go natural.” instead of getting a touch up, just loosen up the roots quickly with the relaxer. Fast. The hair will still be extremely curly and over time it will grow out and look like well defined curls. I’ve done it.

  4. Gina says:

    May I suggest stretching your relaxers if you don’t already? By stretching your relaxer you’re allowing it more time to breathe and reducing the frequency of chemicals. If you stretch it then you may be able to learn more about your hair and you’ll feel more comfortable about deciding to go natural if that is what you really want to do.

  5. says:

    Thanks so much ladies! This is all great advice. Gina I’ve considered stretching but never actually tried it.My biggest fear is breakage. Angela that actually sounds like a really good idea. I never even thought of that before.

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